I purposely skipped yesterday, as it involved taking a personality quiz. I'm not into taking quizzes about myself, as I find them generic and rigid, when people are fluid and ever-changing.
So today's post: Describe a distinct moment when your life took a turn.
Without a doubt, it was Vera's birth. Becoming a mother. It really does change everything, and in more ways than you could ever fathom. I am sure that the fact that your life changes once you become a mother is not news; everyone hears this at least several times when you are pregnant. However, despite hearing this, I didn't really know what it meant until she came into my world.
And I'm not talking about the day to day changes with mothering. Waking early, having to plan regular meals, having to make appointments and plans around naps. Sure, those change things from pre-motherhood life. What I am talking about is what changes within your head that changes you as a person.
For me, it was caring for myself in a way that I never had before. I actually began thinking, "I can not die for many years to come- Vera needs me like no other". This might sound crazy, but I really felt that I was important in someone's life enough that it might mess them up irrevocably so I better make sure I stay alive and healthy for another 30+ years. At least! I'd never really cared much before.
It also changed what I felt was important in my life. Having a high level of education? A respected career? Making good money? Who cares.... those things drained me and hacked down my self esteem and I realized that continuing down the path I was on before would not allow me to be the best mother I could be. And I don't miss any part of my previous career. (Well, the money was good, and I'd plan to make that kind of money again, but it's not important enough now to keep on this new path). Instead, I decided to go for a dream of using my creativity and craftiness as well as be my own boss. And I love it!
And lastly, what others might think of me? The little bit I might have cared about before has completely gone. And even more importantly, I have come to accept that I am who I am, and if that means being a fat lady with a super short hair cut because damn it, it is so freeing! So be it! For proof, you can see this naked pic of me here. Ya, really.